[[GUESS WHAT.
Homg. Like. HOMG.
GUESS WHAT FPFF. GUESS WHAT!
CANDLE AND CLOCK HAVE ACTUAL NAMES. D<
UGH. I was drawing in this coloring book today (No giggling or shooting yourself or anything like such.) and it was a princess coloring book ( <3 ) and it was like telling a story. And it was like Lumière for Candle.
And, Cogsworth for Clock!
Then I went on google to see if it was true. It was D:
B-but, I'm not gunna change the names now. K? xD
I'll reply in a different post since i decided to babble about nonsense. D: ]]

[[So, that means you knew their names already?
Well then, my excitement just died. Like really. Thanks alot FPFF. You should have seen my face when I first saw it on the coloring book though. I got so excited.
Well it's all gone now. Yeah. I went there. ]]

She's just saying that to me nice to me. She won't ever feel fully comfortable here. She just fears my reaction...
The thought panged my heart in a  new kind of pain. Guilt. Of course, I've been feeling that this whole  time, but it was even stronger now.
I looked down at my tea, sadly. No point in playing mind games. I my as well say what I was thinking.
"Don't say things just to be kind to me, My Dear Sage. Like I might hurt you if you say something wrong. I would never live with myself if I did that. Honestly, I believe you will never feel fully comfortable here. And, I'm sorry for that. I truly am."
I whispered the last sentence; surprised that I conjured (If that's the right word. I keep just putting things down that sound right. I don't know if that fits D:) up enough courage to express what was going on through my head.
What has been all along.

[[:D It's alright.
You paid it up by making me feel warm and fuzzy in the email.
And, by that post.
Btw, I love you to.
And, homg. Roleplays can take a year just to go through a week. It's  horrible D: bahahaha. ]]

I held my breath.
Sage. The girl that made my monstrous heart skip a beat just by her giving me a small glance. The girl that made me dizzy by the way she floated around a room. The girl that had eyes so deep that when they stared into me I felt as though I was normal for just a little while.
Felt as though I was human.
Just for a little while.
The girl that made me feel so self concious. So paranoid about her love life...
Touched my paw. My monstrous, hideous, disgusting, repulsive paw that has ripped flesh before.
She touched it.
Warmth spread through me, and ironically I felt as though I might heave with how nervous I became.
She touched it.
She touched me.
Again. And she didn't look disgusted.
I swallowed, hoping I truly wouldn't heave, and said,
"Alright, Sage."
I realized then that I kept saying her name in this tone. A desirable one. Like the way I could feel my eyes portraying longing.
My tone was starting to portray the same thing.
How stupid of me!
"You win this time."
I added softly, forcing myself to look away from those eyes.
Those eyes...
Was there medication for this kind of thing? Was it normal to be so taken by a women?
But I liked being taken. The only bad thing about it was how likely it was that she wouldn't take my beastly heart willingly.
She wouldn't take me at all.

[[Bump <3 ]]

[[Homg. D: I guess Andrew's attempt of kidding around about the whole 'This time' didn't really help D: lollll.
And, reeeeally? I have no idea what I could put on it or what to say or whatever. But, if FPFF did one for me?
That would be amazing ;-;
Watch it be something about flower pickers :O 
I'll reply in a sec~ ]]

I chuckled at Sage's first response. Though to me, I sounded like I was growling. Hopefully she wasn't thinking the same thing.
"Dear, I was just lighting the mood. I don't expect us to be in competition."
I said before taking a small drink of tea. I was still dieing to know what she was thinking. Was her mind elsewhere? Was she thinking about her father?
Or a lover?
I gulped. I had to stop thinking that. What if I was thinking about a man, that didn't even exist?
But if he did exist, I can surely say without even knowing the man that he didn't deserve any women like Sage. Sage deserved a man that would fight for her through any conflict. If the man really loved her, he'd be here by now. Coming as the hero and lover, ready to save the remarkable princess from the gruesome beas-
"Andrew, how long have you been here?"
I heard her soft voice ask. I looked up at her, realizing that the whole time I was caught up in my thoughts, I was staring at the liquid in my cup.
"Sage, I have been her for... A very very long time. (I can't remember D: Any ideas how long, specifically? D:)"
I said, smirking; it really has been a long time. It felt like just yesterday I was walking around every room in the fortress, daring to look at myself in the mirror...
It would result in the mirror shattered, and all of my inanimate friends hiding in fear from my rage of what I saw.

[[Lolll. Well I do love your random inspirations! <33
LOL! I know right? It's easy playing him because I can just babble about how jealous he is O_O ]]

Why was it me and Sage tended to always end up silent? All our conversations ended up becoming too personal and we didn't want to push.
And, I keep feeling like I'm the reason she keeps blushing. Of course, it's just my mind telling me this because of how much she makes me crazy. But, can't a beast dream?
"Sage... You don't have to answer this."
I said carefully as I set the tea down.
"Will you tell me where you lived, at least? What it was like there?"
I wanted to say so much more. I wanted to say how I wanted to know everything and anything about her. Even to the smallest detail; like what shampoo she uses, or if she was a morning person or a night person.
I wanted to say that I was sorry for taking her away from all the people she loved. I wanted to tell her how I wanted her to explain to me each and every person. I wanted to hear her say how much she loved them.
But, I didn't want her feeling uncomfortable with all my probing. Especially since friends didn't ask those wierd types of questions.

I gulped.
And after I was sure I wasn't choking on my own spit, I gulped again.
As she told me about her village my heart ached even more then it had before.
I had taken that away from her.
I had taken away that feeling she felt. I had taken away her feeling of significance. Or, as she said, feeling like she belonged.
Why had I been so selfish? I heard the man had a daughter, and I just had to try one more time to become human again. I had to try to get rid of this spell until it was time to give up. When the petals stopped falling.
When I had no more chances.
But, isn't love about sacrifice? I wanted this women to love me, but if I was doing all of this by my rules, to get my way...
Then I didn't deserve love at all.
It was then that I planned to sacrifice my ability to become human again - to break the spell - so that she could be happy again.
Anything to see a true hint of happiness in her eyes when she smiled, or when she didn't.
"Sage, I..."
I didn't know what to say. I really was the monster locking her in the tower. Though, she didn't say anything about a man...
"I know this will seem very personal, but I can't help but wondering... Is there a man waiting for you to come home tonight?"

[[Dude.
I really miss you.
You usually don't come on until maybe 7:00 where I am, but I'm still hoping you'll randomly come on. xD
I MISS YOU </3 ]]

[[You know how close I was? xD
I said 7 on here ^^
And on the comments, I think I said 8. xD
AND YOU CAME AT LIKE 8 SOMETHING.
That just shows how much I missed you. I memorized without even trying when you come on Res. xD
COME BACK QUICK D:
I've already waiting a full three days for you :x ]]