James responded and wrapped both arms around Adam, holding him firmly and pressing him closer. 

[[ Yes o3o ]] 

[[ I just remembered Luke ^^ Haha~ They squished him <3

Ok ^^ Bring Markus in >3<

Yeah, I was thinking that Alex watch Luke while James takes care of Adam?

Not only does this thing cause scars but lowers self esteem, raises depression/anger/sadness. (Took nursing cla.sses at school XD) We saw a video of women that had miscarriages would go into random seizure type things where their husbands/whatever had to hold them down. o.o It was intense. And they'd be screaming and stuff, I had to turn away and a bunch of girls dropped the cla.ss

Anyway, Luke can call Adam 'momma' :3 CUUUUTE!!

And... I think Alex likes Markus' uniform X3 ]] 

[[ you start? ^ ^ 

And yeah. = Adam won't be the same Dx And neither will James. ]] 

[[X3 Yesssssssssss <33]]

The room was deathly quiet. The curtains were drawn and there were no flowers in th vase on the table next to Adam's bed. James was quiet and as grey and flat was the rest of the room. There had been a single balloon a while ago. It was pink and said "Its A Girl" James had viciously popped it and gotten rid of the carca.ss.

Now, he was either standing and pacing the room, messing with his hair with his arms crossed. Sometimes he would go over when Adam made even the slightest, microscopic movement or sound, only to be discouraged when he hadn't woke up yet. Other times he would touch Adam's cool skin, but draw back, not liking the cold feeling. At one point he had sat beside him for an unknown amount of time just holding Adam's hand. 

But at this point he was standing beside the window, resting his head against the cold gla.ss as the rain outside pelted it quietly. His hair was in bad condition, but he really didn't care. he wasn't wearing his usual makeup, but who was looking? He had lost his lip ring, how? He didn't know.

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Alex looked up at Markus as he came in. His heart raced a little, but that was the only reaction to anything. He felt numb, even though this wasn't happening directly to him. He had taken James out of the room and to the roof of the building so that they could talk. That was hell, he had to nearly drag James because he thought that Adam would wake up without him and be alone. The only thing that had moved him was a nurse telling him that Adam waking up then wouldn't happen.

On the roof James had been quiet until Alex had touched his shoulder. That had set James off on a screaming rampage. 'Don't touch me!' 'This is my fault' 'This shouldn't have happened.' 'I hate this' He had yelled from the top of the rooftops. Alex had figured that this was a years worth of stress build up coming and crashing down on James and he was letting it out now. Alex's face still throbbed were James had removed his left lip ring.

~Flashback~
"I'm supposed to protect him, supposed to be mad out of steel or something and keep everyone away." At this point Alex was almost afraid of James, he'd never seen him this way. "But I-i couldn't! I didn't try hard enough! I just sat there..." Tears were in James' yes but he still wouldn't let Alex touch him. "And watched..." He cleared his throat. Alex frowned at him, quiet, listening.

But James was suddenly throwing off his emotions. "I gotta get back." He had started to walk back to the door that would lt them back inside. Alex had followed of course. "James, are you ok?" "... I'm fine..." James replied, stopping. "I'm fine, I'm fine..." Alex didn't know what to do, afraid to touch him, afraid to talk anymore. He felt totally useless and he was standing two feet away. "I'm FINE!!" James yelld and turned around again, heading in the opposite direction. Alex flinched but followed.

"Oh.. GOD! I am so mad I don't know what to do.." James said, walking back and forth. Alex watched him have his breakdown quietly, a worried look on his face. "I wanna know why. I wanna know why this happened to him. I wanna know how he'll ever be the same as he was yesterday..." He said, he couldn't cry! "Will he ever be the same? I know that I sure as hell won't! He's laying up in a hospital bed because of me!! Because I couldn't protect him."

"I wish I could understand..." He looked at Alex, hoping that he would give him the answer to his question. He had always been there for him, why not now? "I don't-" James cut him off by starting to head back to the door again. "No. This wasn't supposed to happen, I was supposed to..." Alex ran after him and James turned on him. "I don't think I can handle this.. I don't think I can take this.." Alex opened his mouth to say somthing but he continued.

"UGH!! I just wanna hit somebody! Until they feel as bad as I do! I just wanna hit something, hit it hard!!" Alex could take this anymore, James wasn't ever a person to give up or have random breakdowns in the rain. And he was never violent! He rushed forward and grabbed James' shoulder and shook him, making him shut up. "Here! Hit me!" James stopped talking. "Go ahead! Hit me!" James shook his head, eyes wide. "A-alex are you..?" "Come on! I'll make you a T-Shirt! 'I gave him what he asked for!'" James shook his had, and Alex shook him again. 

And Alex saw white, white stars. Black dots. Hell, they could have been purple unicorns. That hurt!! He let go of James as he face was forced down. Once the dizziness cleared Alex opened his eyes again. He hit him? He had asked him though... He spit blood onto the concrete of the roof. "Alex...." James sounded stupefied. "Is that my lip ring?" was Alex's reply.
~End~

The stained lip and a pretty chunk missing. "Which one?" He asked Markus and flinched when Markus started his own breakdown. He sudden;y reached out and put a hand over Markus'. "Don't hurt yourself." He told him. 

[[ Hmmm.... Nurse took him? :D lol We'll bring him in in a sec XD ]]

James turned his head slowly, not believing that he had actually heard Adam's voice until he saw that he was looking into his direction. He pushed himself off of the window and went to him quickly, wanting to get rid of all of the space between them.

He came to th edge of the bed, "I'm here." He announced before he leaned over slowly and kissed his forehead gently. He frowned and wiped the tears that was rolled down his face away.

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Alex watched as Markus kissed his fingertips, mesmerized at the movement but focused on the tears as they fell. He leaned forward and kissed them away. "I think they''ll be ok. But... I think they're... different." He respond, wrapping his arms around the other. He had seen James' difference first hand a while ago. 

Alex blinked, he didn't know how to make Markus feel better. He didn't know how to make James or Adam fell better, or if he even could. All he could do right then was be there for them and listen. He finally pulled away from Markus and moved until he was facing him completely, making eye contact. 

He slid his hand up into the other's shoulders and gave them a slight squeeze. "Hurting them won't make this any better. It won't make anyone any better." He told him, he wanted to go find those heartless, careless people and beat some since into them. Knowing full well that he probably couldn't hurt a fly and would and up getting hurt himself. But that really wouldn't solve anyone's problems. "It'll only cause more problems than it has to begin with."
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Memories of the night that Adam got hurt flashed through his mind, and the day after when he kissed him. He put his hand over Adam's and leaned into it. But even thought that was a little over a year ago, he looked happier and more alive than this. Hot, unshed tears stung his eyes and his chest flt suddenly constricted. "I love you too." James replied thickly before he leaned down again and placed another kiss on the other's lips.

He pulled back and looked up when a nurse in uniform came in carrying Luke. She had a kind smile but was obviously having a hard time keeping a good hold on the squirming and fussing child in her arms. "I'm sorry to interrupt." She announced, her voice was naturally quiet and sounded like a bell. "But someone's looking for you two." Luke turned when she was finished and spotted his parents. 

He leaned haphazardly forward, arms stretched and fingers grasping the air in front of him. He suddenly looked as if he might cry. "Momma!" He whined, then whimpering a little.

The Nurse complied and brought Luke over quickly. He looked like he was going to start crying until his small fingers made contact with Adam's, then he seem content. But he still didn't want this strange woman holding him anymore.

James smiled at Luke too, he had been wondering when he was going to start talking and if now wasn't the most perfect time then he didn't know what was. While Luke and Adam were being reunited he took the time to make sure all of his tears were gone. He thanked the nurse for watching him and askd if he had been any trouble. After she was gone James focused on Adam and Luke.
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Alex was glad that Markus was at least listening to what he was saying, whether he was actually going to listen later was up to him and Alex knew that he couldn't change that. He was starting to see a difference in Markus. He wasn't violent either and hoped he wouldn't go onto a rampage like James did. He didn't think he could handle having his other lip ring ripped out.

The kiss hurt slightly, making his lip throb more than it already was, but he didn't want that to get in the way. And just as the pain didn't bug him Markus pulled away. Alex almost felt the urge to smile at his misfortune. That urge was gone when Markus spoke again and a sharp wave of excitement rushed through Alex's body, beginning in his abdomen. It felt like jumping into cold water when you weren't used to it yet.

"You.. love me" He didn't care if he answered, he wasn't really looking for an answer. He just wanted to say it. Nope, he didn't wait for an answer, he leaned the rest of the way and kissed him back. 

James came over and sat beside the bed that Adam and Luke were sitting in quietly. Through everything that had happened today, he had completely forgotten about Luke. He didn't stop to think of him once while he was rushing around, punching people, worrying about Adam. How it was effecting their baby through all of this.

He suddenly realized how very unfair that was to poor Luke. Wondering what he felt like getting juggled around so much lately. Enough to learn how to say momma without either him or Adam noticing his progress. Or to beg for his parents while the nurses took care of him.

James frowned and reached for the hand that Adam didn't hand and held it gently. "I'm sorry, Luke." He apologized to him quietly. Luke didn't know why he was being apologized to, or that he even was. All that he cared about was he was with mommy and daddy and they were giving all of their attention to him.
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Alex felt the tears sting the corners of his eyes and threaten to spill over. He was so happy he could barely stand it. He moved his arms from Markus' shoulders and up around his neck, letting a hand roam through his soft hair. Its funny how when everything is going by so slowly like it was now, just the two of them, you can enjoy the small details.

Like Markus... smelled really good right now. Maybe it was just Alex and his intoxicated state. But now it was his turn to break the kiss, he did just that and nodded his answer 'yes'. Then rested his forehead against Markus'. "I thought I was the only one..." He told the other quietly. He was embarr*censored*ed by all of the looks they were getting. But he did his best to ignore them, only the lightest shade of pink dusted his cheeks.

[[ Really? I haven't seen that movie yet. I watched Bridge to Terribithia last night and cried XD haha~ (off topic) 

Yeah, I think you could coach someone :3 ]]

James was thinking about how his parent had treated him growing up. How they always shot down his dreams and didn't like the way he looked or acted, and definitely not his sexual preference. He shuttered to think about what would happen if they ever found out about him and Adam.

He focused on Luke. He was determined to give him a better life than he had had as a child and love and support him however was possible in whatever he did. He really did focus on Luke and wondered if he should take him from Adam. But since Adam hadn't asked him to he didn't even move to do so.

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Alex was surprised by the sudden tears on Markus' face. They made his own tears make hot trails down his face. He moved to whip them away for him, sniffling a little as he did so. "It's ok." Alex said quietly, "I would have told you but... I was afraid that you wouldn't feel the same and... leave." He explained the fears that he had been having soon after this relationship started. 

why did people find two guys together so god damned interesting?! They were making Alex lose the concentration that he had to work hard to keep already through the pain of a throbbing lip and his short attention span. He could see them looking for the corner of his eye.