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Bonniefred

bonniefred (pronounced the same as winnifred) was the nickname we used for my old cat, bonnie. two days ago on 23-4-2025 i had to make the most difficult decision of my life- letting him go when it was his time. he was a beautiful old boy with thyroid disease that i was medicating him for ever since i first found him in 2019. we spent a long 6 years together, and i loved him so much. i watched him go from being hyper aggressive to the most affectionate lap cat ive ever met. he loved people far more than cats, and warmed up to strangers fast. he would follow me everywhere i went and fall asleep on my lap the moment i sat down. i felt like i understood him more than anybody ever would, he was my soulmate. on his final day i held him close to my chest and kissed him on the forehead, telling him how loved he was, that he was the best cat. i felt his heart stop beating and it broke me. i miss him so, so much, ive cried harder than i ever have in my life, and i feel like im never going to stop grieving. but at the time of writing this its only been two days, so i hope that someday, it hurts less.